As most of my blog readers know my brother and sister along with my niece and nephews are moving to california. That is exactly 2246 Miles or 3614 Km
also known to take 36 hours of drive time. that is just too far. I've done a pretty good job not loosing it when I've felt like I was about to uncontrollably burst into tears...I keep telling myself this is not about me! My sister said you know thats only going to work for a short time. Very true.
Today as I was picking up my kids from school....and just kinda not in the mood to talk to people..I went to the school and waited until almost exact let out time...ran in...and waited in the hallway quietly [which again is what I wanted] but also made me sad. My sister knows how to push me....Most people don't believe i'm so quiet but I really am. I prefer to not irritate people with nonsense...i'd rather listen to people talk to me than always be the one talking...however people take that the wrong way too...It just hit me like a ton of bricks...that my life will be more quiet...no longer will I constantly have 5 kids running in and out of our house like i am use to[and absolutely LOVE!]...nor will I have my sister knocking on the door as she lets herself in to just hang out...nor will I have our crazy long trips to the store...that we promise will be super quick and turn into an ALL.DAY.EVENT....
It will be quiet.
As I kept myself from bursting into tears. The Lord reminded me of a message I had listened to on Calvary Chapel Modesto's website...by Damien kyle....about the amazing plans the Lord has for us...for them...for this year 2012. He said if you don't believe it then I rebuke you. He continued on to say the Lord gave us His very best from day one...do we honestly think he's run out of his best? thats craziness! This has been helping me keep my perspective...but then the Lord comforted me in a way He has many times in the past...such as....
When we thought we were not getting our home....
When we've asked for clear direction for our ministry [and thought HE forgot about us!] I know crazy!
When we've had various trials....
When we've learned the hard way that this life is not our home...things don't make us
and many more times....
The radio will play Hope Now by Addison Road ....Its God's way of giving me comfort to know He is in control.
i honestly have not heart his on the radio in months....
So when it came on, as I was minutes from bursting into tears...I knew it was the Lord comforting me. I'm so thankful he knows me ...inside and out.
Pray for us. Pray for Em. She was writing out her birthday party list and she started to tear up realizing that her very best friend will not be next door anymore...and will be missing her birthday party for the first time ever. Em looked up at me and said mama...do you think she can fly back for my party? sadly with a big knot in my throat I said no sweetie. not this time.
I'm thankful for the time the girls had....and the boys...
I'm sad that this chapter in our lives is over
But am trusting that the next one starting will be amazing.
So friends...please pray for us. Pray that a good friend for Em and the boys will move in right next door. Pray for my sister...this is hard on her too....
The Lord gives, and the Lord takes away...but blessed be HIs name! Job 1:21
XOXO!
Gina
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I'll be praying for you guys :)
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